Madelyn is the girl who made me a mother. She probably saved my life. She was not planned, and I was so scared when I found out I was pregnant . I was however very excited, but I cried for months when I found out. I had only been with her dad for 3 months and I was waiting tables at Pizza Inn. I remember sitting on the bathroom sink of that old farmhouse, getting ready to go out for the night. Something told me I needed to find out before I partied all weekend. I think the air left my lungs when I seen those faint pink lines. The one thing I will always remember about this time in my life is what my dad told me. I called him at work so excited to tell him I was pregnant. His response was “well you have really messed your life up now.” It was time to grow up and I did just that. If only her dad could have grown up with me, maybe things would be different.
Madelyn is 13 now, and she is my best friend. I am told all the time I should be more of a mother and not a friend to her, but in a way, we grew up together. I want all my kids to be able to tell me everything. I didn’t have that with my parents, so if being her friend makes me a bad mother so be it. Madelyn has turned into an amazing young woman. She excels in everything she does, including school. I don’t know where she got it from, but she is super smart.
Madelyn got baptized yesterday. When she got saved in bible class at school, I was the only family member she told. If I have done one thing right in life, I know it is being a mother. With tears running down my face, she made a profession of faith, and I can’t even describe how proud I am of her. I hope she puts God first in everything, every day. Lord knows this world can be tough and cruel. I wish she could be an innocent 13-year-old girl forever. I hope she travels the world, has a good career, and most of all I hope she creates a life she doesn't need to escape from. If she does, I damn sure hope she has zero issues doing it on her own.
